New path way to the dircetion of my future..

2009-01-18T10:51:00.000+08:00

guys guys... i hv change my blog to wordpress liao..
i wun be deleting dis la.. u'll still can tag mi.. no prob de.. hehe..
anw.. new blog add: ahmeng89.wordpress.com..

tata..

ahmeng..

2009-01-17T09:41:00.002+08:00

WTF.... ytd out of sudden kena called back to work tel. op.... WTF ah.. frm maintenance to tel. ops..
den i see schedule, i can do ops rm la.. den izan can still do tel. ops... den juz do all those shit.............
veri fuck up la.. loga can do maintainenc wad.. dunno e oc ops doing.... wad an ass...``

2009-01-16T17:08:00.002+08:00

haha.. so long liao......... haven go back to bbdc for bike class ler....
today is my 1st day back to bbdc and den i went to class 1.01 instead of 1.02.. cuz i scared i in 1.02 will malu** la.. tot wun find out.. end up found out lor.. den i juz say long time nv come liao.. at least 1yr.. so they oso lan lan.. cannot do anything.. haha.. was fun and shiok ridding with gear 1 n clutch..
haha.. den nw i gt confident to go and ride bike liao.. long time nv go to bbdc to learn bike.. muz go back 1st lesson ah.. haha..

anw.. aft bike, went to arcade wid shan wen till 1100hrs and den go yishun to meet joon keong and 1 of their fren.. haha.. went to eat n watch ong bak 2.. haha.. shiok sia.. i feel tt ong bak 2 nt so nice comparing to ong bak 1.. hehe.. and den nw, ong bak 2 still haven finish.. confirm still got ong bak 3 de.. y? go cinema to watch la.. hahahaha.. :p.. beg mi oso wun tell u.. haha....
anw.. for mi, its worth watchin la.. and nw, next show is IP man..
another fighting show.... haha... and transporter 3.....
i wonder.. i liddat spend, scared my money finish b4 20th jan den die liao.....
tml jogging n meet pd at 1400hrs at church.. hehe...
k la.. gotta go eat dinner liao.. tata..

ahmeng

** lose face.....

2009-01-13T10:55:00.001+08:00

wow!! 1st time go court nv slp in e van sia..
dunno y sia.. frm ytd nite till dis morning, nt so bz..
ok ok onli.. and im e onli SC who goes to court....
sian sia.. haiz...
k la.. i nd to slp..
tata..

ahmeng

2009-01-12T11:50:00.002+08:00

wow.. seems like i hv a long shiok slp last nite.. bt den.. still nt enough for mi.. nw im still yawning.. *yawn*.. gng to bbdc at 1430hrs to renew my 2B membership.. at last im renewing my membership.. haha.. and 2nite is my nite shift.. hmm.. so sian.. dun feel like working sia....
D: .. i tink i gtg to slp more liao..
tata..

aHmEng

How to find a Girlfriend in 5 simple step...

2009-01-11T01:29:00.002+08:00

haha.. i juz read a so called an article of 5 simple steps to find a girlfriend..

below is e article of it..

Step 1- Work on your attraction skills

Before you can even think about finding a girlfriend, it's important to work on your core personality and pick up skills. The logic behind this is to be able to attract that perfect woman once you meet her. So during the process of meeting women, you should work on displaying the characteristics which they'll find attractive.

For instance, you should focus (and try to improve) on the following things:

• Building confidence

• Approaching women

• Conversation skills

• How to build chemistry and rapport

• Seduction skills

Step 2- Know what you want

While you're out meeting women it's important to figure out "the type" you really want. Just like any other goal in your life it's simple to achieve your desired outcome if you have a clear understanding of what you want.

So if you want to learn how to find a girlfriend, then you should think about the type of woman you're looking for. Here are some things to consider:

• Age

• Race

• Body type

• Hair color

• Personality

• Education

• Level of intelligence

• Social Background

Step 3- Go to the right places

While this might seem simplistic, the best way to find your ideal woman is to go where she'll be. In the last step, you learned how to discover your perfect girlfriend. Since you know what she's like, you'll have a clear picture of her personality and interests.

My advice is to simply go to the places where she hangs out. For instance, if you want an athletic girl, then you should look at gyms and other athletic events.

Step 4- Approach and date different woman

The worst thing you can do is to seriously date the FIRST woman who pays attention to you. Instead you should make it a point to date different women till you find one that's perfect for you. As a result, you should make it a point to approach (and date) every woman who find interesting in your life.

By dating lots of women you'll develop a realistic view of what you really want from a girlfriend. Only after you've seen what you DON'T want, will you develop an idea of the perfect girlfriend.

Step 5- Select a girlfriend

The last step is simple. Once you've dated for awhile, you'll start to develop strong feelings for one particular woman. Obviously once you *click* with one particular women, you can make her your girlfriend.

Trying to discover how to find a girlfriend is a hard for many guys. The good news is it's not difficult if you know the right system. If you pay close attention (and implement) the five steps I discussed in this article, you'll discover it's easy to find that perfect girl.

2009-01-09T17:18:00.002+08:00

ytd working nite shift was torturing.. was doing lock up post and lots n lots of accused came in n out.. wad e la.. nv get to slp at all.. and total of 26 accused was brought into lock up.. and still hv abt 20++ over nt yet searched and they were kept in holdong area.. working ytd nite reali torturing.. dunno wad to say ah.. den gt 1 PRC veri G.L to mi some more.. say wanna call his boss.. and his boss cannot find him.. i told him cannot call 1st ask investating officer nt yet given any instruction and oso hv to take dwn statement.. he wanna ask 4 help yet still wanna G.L wid mi.. like as if i own him a wife liddat.. so i raised up my voice abit la.. den he lowered his.. fucking PRC.. G.L ppl.. tt's y i dun reali like PRC alot.. damn them.. asshole.....

k la.. gtg liao.. take my dinner liao..
time check:
1728hrs..
tata..

aHmEng

2009-01-08T13:37:00.002+08:00

:| .. so sian, so tired.. wad's in life? wadeva it is.. still hv to live a life.. even thou its damn bored..
anw.. ytd finished work and went back home was veri tiring.. and when reached home, hv dinner and slp liao.. till 0500hrs in e morning and went back to slp agn till 1200hrs.. till nw i still veri tired.. *yawn*.. ltr gng to do some exercise to slim down liao.. and its time for mi to slim down liao.. y? cuz, I'M FAT.. tt's y.. if nt, y i go do exercise? haha.. bt den nt onli slim down la.. oso hv to keep fit too.. if nt b4 i ORD, i still nv pass my ippt den jui jia lat liao.. :( ..
at least i hv to achieve a bronze ah.. haha..

signning off..

aHmEng

2009-01-06T19:09:00.003+08:00

sian la............................ juz received a msg frm my boss saying..
"please report to station at 0700hrs on 7 jan for escort duty. Thanks."
wa piang.. sian sia.. tot can slp longer.. early early kena court escort liao.. sian lor...
idiot............... haiz.. no choice la.. fucking hell sian..

ahmeng

2009-01-06T16:06:00.002+08:00

*yawn*........... so tired.. anw, juz got home frm pasir ris of Team Alpha's teambuilding workshop..
so cool windy at thr sia.. haha.. woke up at 0635hrs and reached stn @ 0730hrs.. tot will late.. bt luckily din.. lols.. i go thr onli do helper.. so sian rite?? haiz.. bt wad to do? tt's life man..
haiz.. anw.. heck la.. tinkin of signning on.. bt i dunno leh.. :( ...............................
so sian n i dunno wad to write liao............. :( ..............................
anything, i'll update here.. tata..

ahmeng

2009-01-05T17:16:00.002+08:00

yoz.. back here for some updates tt i said on 4th jan..
haha.. anw.. the soccer match we lost.. score is 8-4.. pathatic rite? haha..
anw.. we oso had a gd game la.. thank god tt when having e match, thr's no fights or arguments..
anw.. juz got back frm work and veri tired sia.. haha.. totally cant slp sia.. dunno y oso.. haiz..
anw.. went to court escort, per as normal.. and doing ops rm, b4 0000hrs, incidents hit to 500++.. shiok sia.. bz like hell.. 1st ever kena when i do ops rm.. haha..
i tink i gtg liao.. any.. pay out on e 9th.. muahahaha..
time check, 1721..
tata..

aHmEng

2009-01-04T16:09:00.002+08:00

Wow!! today's match was shiok ah.. n i juz got home.. for a darn long time din run for 45mins in a soccer match liao.. still can at least tahan even thou i've broke down in abt 20 to 25 mins.. bt still.. i survive for 45mins.. haha..
1st half was tiring.. no energy to run.. bt anw.. oso nd to slim down liao.. so ok lor..

den 2nd half im keeper-ing.. long time din keep liao.. still nt tt bad la..
juz nd to brush up abit.. i dived on my left was my 1st time doing..
cuz normally i dive is dive right.. i oso dunno y onli right side..
anw.. fell aslp during posting dis blog..
time check: 1740hrs

gtg liao.if nt, late for work liao..
tata..

aHmEng

P.S: will come back update agn by tml..

2009-01-02T16:48:00.002+08:00

2nd jan? hmm.. woke up at 1615hrs.. slept at 0730hrs..
haha.. im an owl man.. hehe.. mayb im used to it nt slpin ler bah.. :/
wadeva.. anws.. as per normal.. when woke up, nobody was in e hse..
my sis is in skol, my mum n dad is at work.. so im left alone.. so sian..
and my sis is in sec 3 nw.. dunno hw's her life in sec 3 N.A. jia lat sia..
she nd to survive in skol for anothr 2yrs.. anw.. oso nt much of my probs la..
nw watching tv on ch8, e taiwanese drama show.. was so damn bored and i dunno wad to do..
will be gng to work out ltr ine evening and night.. MUZ KEEP FIT liao.. my tummy got BIGGER liao.. hehe:E .. hopefully when i finish my work out, i wun be like tt tym in gym, wanted to faint liddat.. i dunno wad will happen if i reali faint.. and i dun wanna imagine it as well..
worse come to worse, at most go hospital lor.. hmm..
bt anw.. tt wun happen.. cuz got God, he'll protect every single one of us..

anw.. i gtg to watch my tv liao..
tata..

aHmEng

2009-01-02T05:09:00.003+08:00

time check: o510hrs @ 020109..
couldn't slp.. nw watching power rangers operations overdrive..
u'll can say i no childhood.. bt i couldn't tink of wad to do.. so juz watch lor..
haha..
bt anw.. today is e day tt pri and sec skol student gng back to skol liao..
and in sec skol, surely got alot alot of checks to do on 1st day of skol..
so normal lor.. got used to it in e life in sec skol..
bt wad to do?? juz to accept lor..
anw.. im here to wish them happy studying and get gd grades and pass wid flying colors in their results.. especially some1.. i shall nt mention who.. :P
k la.. gtg watch my power rangers liao.. haha..
tata..

aHmEng
time check: 0528 @ 020109..

2009-01-01T14:31:00.002+08:00

Yoz.. Welcome 2009.. haha..
Time Check: 1432hrs..
and in 1mth and 15days ltr will be my 20th bdae liao..
On my.. time files fast.. soon, i'll ORD liao..
and soon, gng to find job or sign on..
and oso.. may get married..
wow!! tink so far liao..
onli tink, bt den, haven start preparing my future..
haiz..
Mymy.. i reali cant imagine hw will i be like in future..
in 5yrs time? 10yrs time?
wow!!

k la.. i gtg liao..
Time Check agn: 1436hrs..
Date: 010109

aHmEng

2008-12-31T15:04:00.002+08:00

today is e day tt 2008 will end and brings 2009 to everyone of us in e world..
ltr will be gng down to church to countdown.. bt den frm 1800hrs to 2030hrs, i dun feel like taking alter wid other family as i feel so uneasy la.. another words, awkward..
anw.. will see how la.. hmm.. i reali feel like gng to NPC leh.. i hope in 2009, my boss will let mi go to NPC and someone in NPC will come to HQ, T/Alpha and den i can go to NPC lor.. i reali wanna go NPC work, see hw does it goes like.. i dun wanna my 2yrs in NS to be wasted in HQ doing nth..
i pray tt it will come true..
k la.. gtg.. tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-31T01:32:00.002+08:00

hw i wish i could be a P.O(police officer), plain clothes de.. CID or even CNB oso gd..
being a uniform police, nt onli meet e member of public.. bt oso nd to handle crowd too!!
i was tinkin og signing on.. bt alot alot of regular told mi nt to.. as they told mi alot of their experience handling them and even complains tt is so unreasonable and some member of public is so F*** UP kind tt like to picking on police.. tt's so so unreasonable la..
onli knw hw to complain.. bt dunno hw we work.. ask them to help, scare like ppl will find them and KILL them liddat.. F*** UP man.. scared till their ass DROP ah..
bt tt's onli partly.. some member of public are bold enough to chase thiefs la.. etc..
tt kind, we will appricaite it.. ^^, thx..

i hope i knw wad's my future will be like.. nw onli can walk one step and count one step lor..
k la.. gtg liao..
tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-29T19:38:00.002+08:00

haha.. today feel so PIG ah.. slp till 1600hrs.. frm 0600hrs till 1600hrs..
veri pig rite? haha.. anw.. long time din slp till so long liao.. wake up liao den do nth..
anw.. tml im off la.. so still no prob slp ltr abit tonite.. haha..
k la.. watching tv nw.. tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-28T21:36:00.002+08:00

i knw i'm unpopular la.. bt den am i tt annoying? am i annoyance to others?
was wondering wor.. y ppl go out, dun jio mi de? onli when read e blog den know..
anw.. nvm liao.. i know tt i veri unpopular.. no frenz no nth.. juz a loner..
w.e.f nw, i will be alone.. gt ppl ask mi to go out den go.. nobody ask den juz pretend i dunno anything even if i saw anything on blogs or heard ppl saying..
and oso gng hm, w.e.f nw, i will nt ask ppl to giv mi a ride.. since i'm alone nw..
anything, i'll juz keep quiet lor.. whoever wanna say i emo den let it be.. cuz i dun giv a shit anymore..
tt's all..

aHmEng

2008-12-28T01:11:00.002+08:00

hmm.. wad shall i write?? ok.. start from e noon when i went out wid jeremy on 26 dec @ abt 1500hrs.. called him to ask him to go gym wid mi.. so end up i e onli 1 doing e exercise in gym..
feel so pai sei la.. >.< .. and e location is at Bishan stadium thr lor.. and we bought e ticket liao.. den we went in, end up jeremy gt no sport shoes and he cant do.. so tt's y i left alone in thr.. and oso, 1st tym in public gym, their tings i dunno hw to use.. so when i see e running machine, i straight away go thr and press dis and tt till it work lor.. haha..

anw.. when running half-way, i felt tt long tym nv run liao.. and onli 2nd lap, my engine died..
wa kao.. in TraCom nt liddat de sia.. den i "forced" myself to carry on running additional 2 laps.. and tt tym i reali cannot take it liao.. so i stopped.. and when i stopped and came down frm e running machine, i juz turned and out of a sudden, i feel giddy.. dunno y sia.. or izzit bcuz i cannot go gym type de? hmm.. dunno la.. at tt moment, i juz feel veri giddy and oso wanna vomit too!! bt thank god i din faint or vomit thr la.. if hv, i tink my face can throw liao.. and 1st tym go public gym leh.. nt in skol or in my division de.. reali feel so pai sei lor.........>.<.......

den aft tt, went to J8 to get something and went to acarde awhile and den go off liao..
i tink hor, next tym try agn in gym.. see izzit tt i cannot take it? or is i din do warm up..
hmm.. -.-?? anw anw.. gtg to watch my Fa Zhen Xian Feng 2 liao.. muhahaha............
tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

everybody should knw abt wad happen to Chew Chor Meng a.k.a Lobang King and Mr Kiasu ler bah.. if those still dunno.. he kena Spinal Muscular Atrophy.. feel so sad for him.. thank God tt he's a christian.. if nt, i dun tink he has e strangth to carry on living.. and we, christian should keep him in prayer as he's our in Christ.. and pray for him tt he will recover and in future, he is active.. and doesnt nd any wheelchair for him.. and pray for his family too!! pray tt his children in future when grow up or when they're old, they wun kena Spinal Muscular Atrophy.....

let God do e job as we pray for him and his family..
God Bless..

aHmEng

2008-12-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

WA PAING.... my phone dropped on e floor HARD sia..
nw gt SCAR liao.. heartpain sia..
due to stupid $0.50 dropped frm my handphone pouch..
den wanted to step on my coin and i juz bounce abit.. den my phone drop..
ERRRR:@

heartpain ah.. scar.. :(
sob sob..

aHmEng

2008-12-25T15:04:00.002+08:00

tt lyrics i juz posted is e songs tt touches mi when i watched a show on channel 5 called "Christams Carol: The Movie".. i dunno how to say la.. cuz i watched haf-way onwards.. bt dis song and dis show is veri touching.. i suggesting u'll go find dis movie and watch it.. it reali touches mi..
love dis song n dis movie..

tata.. gtg...

aHmEng

What If by Kate Winslet

2008-12-25T15:03:00.001+08:00

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know

2008-12-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

haiz.. dunno wad to write............
anw.. last mon, morning shift, long time nv talk on air despatching resources to incident place liao..
den while doing it on morning shift, i feel so shiok.. and my seniors reali giving mi a pat on my shoulder saying that i've done well.. i was so touched.. some more she a malay sia.. at least she's nt raceist type wan..

and ytd do night shift.. was sian and tired...... y? cuz went to court escort agn..... :|
no choice la.. im stuck in DHQ for so long.. haiz.. wan to transfer to NPC dunno whether can anot..
told OC liao.. he say.. see hw lor and wait lor.. den i no choice and hv to wait lor.. :(
*yawn*.. i wanna slp liao.. tink nt enough slp..
tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-21T13:33:00.001+08:00

today is my 2nd of day.. gng out ltr to vivo to see police career fair..
some sort la.. was tinkin to sign on den become regular.. i dun mind kena complain..
at most i kena explaination onli wad.. no big deal.. they wanna sack mi they gonna pay mi lor..
plus police force now lack of man power.. ltr go thr see will knw liao lor..
k la.. gtg..

aHmEng

2008-12-19T12:13:00.002+08:00

haiz.. feel so lonely.. on wed, i was damn emo la.. die.. my emo-ness come back agn..
anws.. is reali emo la.. so lonely.. i juz hate dis kind of feeling..
no gf, nt much fren.. go home always alone.. eat oso always alone.. go out oso always alone..
basically, do anything oso always alone.. y? am i tt horrible person?? i hope not..
when i nv eva appear in church for damn long, will anyone ask mi wad happen?? i guess not bah..
sometimes i juz feel like gone M.I.A.. bt den i hv ministry gng on.. wad sia..
haiz.. im so so so tired la.. lonely too...!!!!
and i asked pd whether nt to play for eng.. nt reali telling him e reasons.. bt i juz feel tired liao lor..
i dun mind playing when thr's no drummer.. and im trying to produce 1 drummer out.. bt who will?
in our youth side to produce 1 is so difficult liao.. wan mi to produce 1 for eng.. tink la.. can anot?
if youth side is easy to produce 1, i dun mind produce 1 for eng.. bt nw is.. got ppl anot?
i wanna back out oso cannot.. dun might as well dun wan drum lor.. since u'll always say e drum in eng so loud.. and for mi i alr try to keep it down liao.. bt still loud.. if reali u'll couldnt take it, den change it to electric drum set lor.. am i right to say tt anot?
i dunno wad to say for e whole worship teams la.. lke wad mel ytd during prac say.. e vocals are talking to themselves.. nv reali discuess wid e musicians.. sometimes, i wonder.. are we, e musicians(youth), knw wad u'll vocals are talking abt?
i see liao i oso pek cek... its like.. WTF.. i dunno la.. i agree wid mel.. worship style have to change.. cannot follow our previous time style liao.. mayb 4 songs, ordering of e songs, 2 fast 2 slow.. no lor.. if mi.. when i choose songs.. like 5 songs.. i'll juz mix ard wid e songs lor.. doesnt mean tt muz 2 fast song in front and 2 slow songs behind.. is so wad la.......

i dunno la... bb..... gtg..

aHmEng

2008-12-16T11:13:00.000+08:00

dunno wad to say sia.. sian lor.. juz came back frm work..
want to go to npc, dunno gt chance anot.. :(
haiz..

2008-12-15T00:47:00.002+08:00

haha.. on sat was veri shiok sia.. nv had e expierence of gng out of DHQ to screen ppl..
and DHQ life isn't nt reali my life other den in charge office and NPC doing work..
i would prefer NPC life den in Ops Rm sia..
anw.. sat was reali damn fun la.. screen 20 ppl and 10 imei.. shiok sia..
Amk South, alot of ppl to screen wan seh.. Amk Hub la, K-Box, K-Pool, inside shopping ctr..
haha.. when i walk in uniform, im proud, rather den in DHQ, nt say tt im nt proud in DHQ, bt den in DHQ, onli work inside.. nt doing NPC job..
and oso, when mi and 2 regulars in e car and in Chomp Chomp, when we wanna leave e place, juz out of a sudden, an old uncle came out frm no whr and nearly hit us wid his bicycle..
pro sia.. e 3 of us was in shock tt y dis uncle dunno who to wait wan..
wad e hell man!!!!!!

and oso tt Oc Ops let mi do maintanence.. lucky maintanence start work at 0900hrs to 2030hrs..
shiok sia.. in chrage office, more shiok.. gt an insane lady, aged 50yrs old and 1 uncle 30yrs old..
the aunty is wanted to end her life as she say her children dun care abt her n others.. and she ah.. 32 sia.. another meaning.. she's SIAO.. crazy.. and e uncle, he oso abit 32.. he banged his head against e wall.. self-violent.. wow..
long time nv kena dis of accd..
anw, ltr doing maintanence agn.. so will be in charge office agn.. muahahaha..
k la.. gtg liao..
tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-12T23:16:00.002+08:00

tml is my day of doing patrolling.. nv done it b4..
hope it will be a fun experience bah..
nw watching tv and using comp at the same time..
kinda tired as i din get any slp all e way frm last night till nw..
onli power nap.. so.. dunno whether wanna go slp nw or???

anw.. tml will be in church helping xiaoyan rangers worship..
hopefully jerome can do e song tt xiaoyan chose..
aft tml, when i reached home, i see gt time to update anot.. if not, aft work on sun den update lor..
tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-12T18:54:00.003+08:00

haha.. in church now.. juz came back frm jalan jalan wid jeremy @ bugis..
haha.. went to swee lee to buy drum sticks and brush too.. lols..
now doing nth.. haha.. waiting for time to past here.. haha..
tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-12T12:21:00.002+08:00

wow!! was doing night shift ytd and its so so darn bz la.. phone calls here and thr..
till my whole neck turned stiffed 4 a while..
calls stopped at abt 2330hrs.. den at certain time, e phone will ring agn..
haiz.. wad to do? tel. operator job is to ans phone calls and oso create message, MSS, Coroner, and etc.... bt anw.. sat, my 2nd off, will be burned for abt half a day.. cuz gt ops fista.. anti crime wan de..
nv experience dis kind like NPCO job.. i tink will hv a gd gd experience of it bah..

bt my fren told mi tt its so sian la.. its like equally no nd him ard de..
bt i dunno la.. will see hw lor..
hmm.. let's see.. wad to do next?
hmm.. i tink i will be buying drum sticks and tinkin of buying lappy bag, hand carried de..
den can be claimed frm my division side.. haha..
k la. i nd to go bathe liao.. tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-10T21:21:00.003+08:00

haha.. today doing work darn shiok..
din slp.. bt still shiok wad.. hehe..
hospital msg onli gt 1.. and others onli abit.. nt more den 5 extra tings to do..
WAHAHAHA.. anything, i'll update e next day when aft night shift..
hehe..

aHmEng

2008-12-10T00:43:00.003+08:00

when i see u.. my heart pumps..
wan to approach u.. scared history repeats..
wan to approach u.. i tink of myself.. which part of mi and u are compatible n whether i hv any kind of weird feeling tt i dunno hw to explain..
wan to approach u.. bt i dunno wad to do due to last r/s failure..
wan to approach u.. bt tinkin im still in NS..

i dunno wad to do.. feel like wanna die..

aHmEng

2008-12-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

anyone who are reading my post, dated on e 9th dec.. plz.. dun go tell ppl abt it..
cuz actually i cannot post dis ting up de.. hopefully e police force wun come find mi aft i post dis tingy up..

aHmEng

2008-12-09T21:53:00.002+08:00

today is a boring day.. and nearly late to police stn.. cuz today in-service.. so, need to go back..
if not.. actually no need to go back as today is my 2nd off day.. and tml will be my 1st shift..
bt anw.. thx to my fren.. called mi twice and i woke up at 0730hrs.. if nt.. i tink today will kena AWOL liao..

in-service for today was ok la.. 1st, inspection by INSP.. aft tt police pledge.. den fall out..
and went to auditorium for some talks.. gt 1 talk is abt disorderly of member of public.. is to see hw we, as pollice officer handled lor.. and media was thr la.. etc.. making tings a big big HOO HA..
den gt 1 video.. when in e processing of watching it.. jia lat.. i tink my paitent went down alot sia..
i dunno why.. bt juz went down alot.. anw.. when i was watchhing dis video.. e member of public still can challenging us, the police to take action against them and she veri Fuck Up lady and Fuck Up ang mos taking videos.. wad e hell la.. so when dis lady din comply wad e police officer told them..
and juz so good.. e i/c cannot tahan liao.. he called a non-spf veh to drive @ e scene and escort dem off..

see la.. dis kind of member of public.. i tink deserve to kena charge at court sia.. and oso e ang mo dunno nth abt police pledge, or even s'pore pledge.. he anyhow say e s'pore pledge as police pldege.. WTF.. if i see dis ang mo agn.. i tink i'll say, "u idiot ang mos.. u better shut ur gap.. they're police, they knw wad are they doing.. if u dun comply.. they will arrest u of breach of peace.. and u will get charge on tt.."

dunno wad e ang mo will react aft tt..
haha.. k la.. gtg liao..tata..

aHmEng

2008-12-08T22:22:00.002+08:00

im fine now.. juz feeling abit moody, sian and kinda confused.. or can say is dunno wad to do..
cuz im kinda scared tt history might happen agn..
i dunno hw to say.. bt im juz scared ah.. if history happens.. i tink pd will come find mi..
err.. dunno wad to do ah.. *pulling hair*..
see hw bah..

aHmEng

2008-12-08T09:12:00.002+08:00

WTF..... lend money frm my mum oso wan KP mi.. if i have money now, would i asked her?
ans is 'no' wad.. i nv say i wun return her.. i even say can claim frm my division.. and yet she KP mi.. Fuck la.. i dun care whether she call mi till my phone batt gone or wad.. or even she buy dinner anot.. i dun care.. tt's all i wanna say..

AHMENG...

TONG REN BU TONG MING

2008-12-07T01:34:00.003+08:00

sometimes i was wondering.. hw come some parents can sponsor their children to go for driving licences.. at least each party pay half.. if let's say i take, nobody will wanna pay 4 mi or even pay half.. 'tong ren bu tong ming ah' .. nw i have no freaking idea when am i gonna re-take my bike licence.. and when am i gng to re-new it..
and guess wad.. next yr e ang pao money.. i comfirm wun be keeping it at all.. no matter who giv.. sure will kena "steal" by parents.. its nt fair la.. and i swear.. when i become a father of dunno hw many children, i wun be like them.. cuz i wan my children to have savings..
nt like nw.. i, as their children, dun have any saving frm young and my mum keep asking mi to save when i have nt enough money to use for my own.. its really unfair ah..

y other ppl can, and why i cannot.. tt time i fought this ting wid my mum.. she say raymund gt lotsa saving.. i den reply her lor.. his ang pao money he got to keep, and when he's young, he got saving as his parent put in those money inside wan.. cuz last time ray taking pocket money frm his parent is by monthly.. nt daily.. at least monthly, its darn easy to save den taking daily..
and when i took pocket money daily, sometimes i din finish using it, like example, they gave mi 10bucks for a day and i left 4bucks, the 6 bucks they will top up den rather giving mi another 10bucks agn.. i prefer taking monthly wan..
and if in e past, when taking pocket money by monthly.. i sure can save.. not like now.. im PENNILESS.. now i taking $500++ frm NS, hw to save? u tell mi la.. cun save la.. and NS pay is TOTALLY nt enough la.. for those who are in NS should knw.. so wad i had $500++.. i still nd to pay my phone bills, pay my mum $150, den e rest eat, buy own stuffs.. whr gt enough.. den now i wanna take bike licence, my monthly salary nt enough wan lor.. they still wan to KP mi tt in e past i din save.. hw am i suppose to save? they din even giv mi any chance to save la.. if have, would i be so so so broke now? ans is 'NO' i wun be so so so broke now and keep asking them for money.. so i nw say.. in future, i will nt be like them..

i will let my children to have their own savings and their ang pao money, they keep.. i will nt touch it.. im so so so regret to live in dis family.. can blame on mi when i have no chance to save..
too much...................

P.S: nt tt im childish on angry-ing of dis matter.. its e fact..

aHmEng

2008-12-06T22:22:00.002+08:00

today is my mum's birthday.. yet i din buy her anything.. :(
bt nvm.. aft i get pay, see wad i can buy 4 her as belated present.. hehe..
so sad.. i tink i gonna postpone my learning bike liao.. dis will plan la.. bt i tink i might postpone it.. hmm.. anw.. today work morning shift, luckily start work at 0900hrs.. cuz i ytd night nv reali slp sia.. slept at 0400hrs sia.. woke up at 0700hrs when i heard my alarm clock ringing.. some more e alarm is under my pillow.. pro rite? lols..
so anw anw.. hmm wad should i buy for my mum? bag?, necklence? or wad?
dunno wad to choose leh.. haiz.. headache ah.. seldom buy stuffs for gals de.. nw wanna buy tings for my mum.. abit difficult leh..

haiz...............

gtg.. tata..

aHmEng

so bored, so lonely, so confuse and goodbye..

2008-12-05T12:31:00.004+08:00

day by day past by..

each day is so bored in life..

when finding ppl is so difficult..

wad's e point to have frens around?

currently, afraid history will happen..

if thr's afraid in life..

its equally no life..

when we hunams are afraid..

meaning we're nt dreaming..

when we humans are nt afraid..

meaning we're dreaming or cold blooded..

here to say goodbye..

aHmEng..

2008-12-04T20:24:00.003+08:00

dis morning went to court escort wid 11 officers and 15 PICs..
number of tings happen..
when heading back to stn frm sub court, 1 of e officer deposit his arm and yet 4gt to draw his arm at e armoury side.. den no choice have to head back thr and let him draw lor..
den aft tt, when we heading back to stn and when reached, my head nearly got caught wid e doors.. y? cuz officers haben wake up yet.. i oso nd to alight frm e van, bt i dunno y he din sees mi and when i wanna get off, nearly got caught sia.. scary........
lucky im alert enough.. if nt, my head roll on e floor sia.. *phew*

den reached home @ 1030hrs.. tired like nobody's business..
slept till 1600hrs.. starting frm 1130hrs till 1600hrs..
k la.. i still hungry aft dinner @ 1745hrs..
tata..

aHmEng..

2008-12-03T11:49:00.003+08:00

hahahaaaa.... i had a dream last night.. guess wad dream was tt?
i dreamt tt thr's a bunch of ppl MADE IN CHINA de.. 2 of e guys din wear anything..
plainly, naked.. the dream goes like dis..

juz out of a sudden, i am at this unknown place, and mi n my fren juz cross the traffic lights, wanting to take transport go home.. so juz tt we crossed e traffic light, mi n my fren saw a bunch of CHINA ppl walk towards the traffic and 2 of them are totally naked.. they din even bother to cover themselves and luckily thr's no one ard.. so anw.. mi n my frens are Police Officer.. so we went forward and showed them our warrent pass to indicate tt we are P.O..
so we went up and asked them y they din have their clothes on? and they din give mi any reason y they dun have their clothes on.. instead they knw we are P.O.. funny rite?
bt anw, we arrested them and brought them back to stn and let other officers thr to handle it..
and mi n my fren juz left e stn aft tt..

lols.. i was tinkin, why i have dis dream sia.. izzit tt God wants mi to? or juz simply a dream?
hmm.. one wonders......
k la.. im hungary.. tata..

aHmEng..

2008-12-02T21:11:00.002+08:00

sian.. :.. my oc purposely put mi at ops room doing tel. operator..
he's such an ass hole.. today in lock up, i counted e accused correctly, den he say he's right..
and he nt happy den asked mi goo count agn....... WTF la.. fucking oc.. wad a pain..
and he always tink he's right and we're wrong.. ask him go fuck off man.. i dun like dis kind of ppl to become my oc.. i prefer other officer that's more nicer den him to be my oc..
dunno wad to say abt him.. anw.. i shall nt reveal his fucking name..

KNNBCCB........... ERRR :@
IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck.. i shall go off..

aHmEng

2008-12-01T18:11:00.003+08:00

i tink i nt gng to mission trip liao.. no mood to go oso..
den my mum decided nt to go back m'sia too.. so during Dec. period, i dunno wad to do..
dun feel like to go to work leh.. some more on e 26th Dec have to work.. no Christmas mood and no mood to work too.. so sian la.. no choice la.. who ask mi tt my social circle so so small..
and oso i was tinkin tt whether can work at I.T fair anot leh.. hmm..
i asked my fren liao.. she say she will let mi knw ah.. so i hope i can get it ah..

bye..!!!

aH mEng

bored

2008-12-01T17:04:00.002+08:00

im so so bored.. so bored till i fell aslp when watchin tv.. and today is monday..
and somehow feel lonely.. when i dun find ppl, ppl wun find mi..
when i find ppl, ppl wun find mi too.. haiz.. tt makes mi more sian den ever..
wanted to go back to m'sia de.. den somehow ytd my mum say she tink better nt go back liao..
dunno she say go back oso nt happy.. aiya.. dunno la..
so till now i dunno wad she wants lor..

so bored, so lonely..
and ytd so funny..
anw.. overall is sian.......
bye!!

aH mEng..

2008-11-30T22:43:00.003+08:00

hmm.. today was a tiring day.. bt yet still crappy.. y? cuz aft work, reached home abt 0830hrs..
bt den i slept at 1030hrs.. and i slept till 1430plus plus.. and ray msg mi askin whr m i? cuz actually today got co workers' mtg wan.. at 1400hrs.. bt den i overslept.. so din go.. den i told him i'll meeting him at jurong east stn to go to Expo.. as thr's an I.T fair thr..
so anw.. when we reached thr.. piang.. thr's lots of ppl la.. and we went pass lenovo, den we got a flyer frm them.. den we went back thr to look agn.. they like knw mi lor and nt ray.. dunno why.. haiz.. bt im happy man.. muhahaha..

anw.. when we went back t0 lenovo side, 2 gals recognized mi lor.. hahas.. anw, ray bought e same laptop as mine.. lenovo Y430.. shiok sia..
muhahaha.......

k la.. gtg liao..
tata..

aH mEng

2008-11-29T08:56:00.002+08:00

im so so bored.. gng to mel's party ltr.. and im totally broke liao lor..

haiz.. sad :'( ....... hw to save more more monry sia?? can somebody gd in money management guide mi abit..? :'(

anw.. haben bath yet.. and oso n quite sure hw to go to mel's party thr..

die la..

gtg.. tata..

..aHmEng..

2008-11-28T22:45:00.004+08:00

im so so sian la.. i dunno wad to do.. im so so so scared to go into any r/s.. as in BGR..

im scared.. reali scared.. especially e last r/s i had..

i wan to go into r/s.. bt its so so difficult..

cuz now.. i like somebody.. tt's younger den mi agn..

i dunno y..

anw.. i will not reveal who is tt person..

its veri confused.. and headache..

the onli way is tt.. i will leave it to God..

i hope God will answer.. bye.. gtg..

..aH mEng..

2008-11-26T23:45:00.002+08:00

today was so...... tt i dunno hw to say..
juz out of a sudden, fion messaged mi askin hw am i?
so i replied lor.. cuz 1st, i dun hate her ler.. and when i tink back..
im knida abit childish la.. hate her for wad? so wad she did to mi in e past?
and y am i so petty? i no nd to be petty at de wad.. tt's nt my character in e past..
so we juz messaged, replied her and thr.. so nw, we're frens ler lor..
and oso no point hating a person la.. for wad hate a person? rite?
hate a person is so difficult.. and tiring too..
bt anw.. bless her in her everything la..

k ler..
i gtg liao..
tata..

aH mEng

2008-11-26T14:58:00.001+08:00

haiyo... im so sleepy la...
*yawn*..
time check now is: 1459hrs..
CT @AS: 0930hrs..
correction of timing.. is 0930hrs reached home..
i wanna go slp liao..
bye now..

2008-11-25T15:56:00.002+08:00

hallo...........
today is so bored.. went to cut hair, came back home and nobody's ard..
dad, mum working.. sister.. i tink go dating.. so left mi alone at home lor..
im so so lonely..
so when im bored, i went to watched tv 1st.. show finished.. nth 2 watch liao..
i prefer Starhub Cable den Singtel mIo.. mIo is so sian lor.. sport channel dun have..
onli hv Serie A.. ESPN, STARSPORTS dun hv.. sian.. cannot watch EPL..
nvm.. i'll see hw izzit bah..
anw.. i was reading my friendster's comment, that my friend post to mi.. aft reading it..
i dunno why i feel so touched.. serious.. even Vivian, my ex oso post too.. abt 3yrs ago de..
reali.. nw i cun find my old self back.. tt kind of happiness tt most of them sees in mi..
and abt 2-3yrs back, i was abt 16-17yrs old.. tt was e time whr most of e youth in tt age, emotions starts to be like roller coaster.. y i say its like roller coaster? cuz, when we say our mood change, either happy or sad.. all its fast.. and sometimes, i, especially, e mood is so fast till it can go all e way down.. and difficult to climb..
anw.. when i was reading it.. alot of them, friends, sees alot of mi.. seriously speaking..
i was reali touched.. bt den.. nw i've change.. nw, im nt e 1 tt u sees mi laughing all way liao..
and i reali reali cannot find my ownself back wad i am in e past..

k la.. i gtg liao..
something on.. onli can write till here..
tata..

aH mEng

2008-11-23T13:49:00.002+08:00

haha... guess wad... fri nite working till next day sat morning, didnt slp.. den aft that, i straight away go Fresh Fire liao.. 1125hrs reach Trinity @ Paya Laber Church.. and tell u 1 ting..
the church ia SOOOOO big ah.. till i dunno hw to get in.. bt thank god that, juz nice, louis came out of the church, and he directed mi to whr they is.. *phew*.. hee..
hmm.. in thr, thr's alot of ppl sia.. can say is more than thousand of ppl go to Trinity frm various churches.. anw anw.. the music and worship workshop is good, bt i kinda fall aslp in the workshop.. i knw its gd cuz i gt at least listen.. haha..
and the conference in e night.. is also fantastic.. its Rev. Bernard Blessing.. his sermon was good.. bt yet i still fell aslp.. due to didnt get slp on fri and when aft work, straight away goes to trinity somemore.. haha..
k la.. i dunno wad gonna post liao..
post up some other time la..
tata..

aH mEng

2008-11-21T11:35:00.003+08:00

FINALLY... im on LIGHT DUTY... HAHAHA...
juz kidding.. now im on LIGHT DUTY doing filer job..
no nd to take gun, T-baton, handcuffs.. if nt, i'll be doing tel. operator.. i stress sia..
anw.. its fun doing in e ops room bt nt tel op or operator.. its scary man...
anw.. my LIGHT DUTY till 25th nov onli.. sian.......
and i dunno wanna go carolling anot leh..
i feel like gng to mission trip, bt den i dun like to carol lor....
i tink i btr go back to m'sia wid my mum bah.. heez..
even thou go m'sia is doing mission, bt carol leh.. no no la..
anw.. tml gng to Fresh Fire.. gng to their workshop in e noon.. tony, zj n ray will go in e morning as they nd to play for wroship.. den i tink i wll be left alone ler bah.. haiz.. dunno hw to go thr oso.. so sian.. :(
nvm.. ltr check online to hw to go lor..
k la.. gtg liao.. veri lazy to type ler..
bye..

aH mEng

2008-11-19T17:06:00.002+08:00

*yawn*... so sleeeeeepy... juz returned home frm HTA.. damn tiring sia..
went to HTA for PDT re-certificate for those in e Division for a long time.. as for those who Pass Out frm HTA aft April 08.. no nd to learn.. shiok sia.. bt next yr have to liao.. cuz everybody in division, dun use PDT tactic alr.. cuz its nt veri practical.. its another knowledge 4 us to rmb.. i prefer kungfu, TKD, etc... anw.. those who juz p.o.p, no nd to learn.. bt den.. veri sian oso.. haiz..
slept in PDT lesson, walk walk, and even we when to find OCT, Sc/=Tan..
he shiok sia...

1 room 2 person using, still have personal issued lappys.... and can assess internet...
k la..

2008-11-18T05:04:00.002+08:00

*yawn* .... guess wad? time check now is 0505hrs...
wow!!! amazing... i slept 6 hrs starting frm 2100hrs...
den woke up at 0300hrs.. den couldnt slp anymore.. and play online game till now sia...
now im yawning.. tink gng to slp soon.. and in e evening, abt 1600 - 1800 hrs, singtel ppl will come and do e mio tv and e internet tingy......
dun feel any excitement leh... nor heart beating fast...
anw.. i dunno why i juz keep missing somebody... not onli 1 person im missing.. bt 2.. if im nt wrong... wad's wrong wid mi man...!!!!
i tot i onli missing 1 person.. dun even knw hw come im missing 2 person.. and tt 2 person... nvm.. i shall not say.. u'll ask, i oso will not say... haha..
k la.. i tink i shall go zZzzzzZzz liao..
tata

aH mEng

2008-11-17T00:59:00.002+08:00

wa piang.. ytd morning darn sway la....
when walking down e stairs oso can fall and rolled down..
bt onli left 3 steps la.. i dunno wad happen sia.. when walking down e stairs, i was putting keys and b4 i step down, i looked in front.. and i cfm tt in front gt stairs.. bt.. juz out of sudden, my right leg suddenly turned jelly and my left foot din landed properly.. tt y kena sprained and heard a loud crack too!!

dunno whether izzit still wanna slp leh...?
haiz.. and oso somebody laugh at mi when i sent e msg to her.. i in pain still can laugh at mi and say mi clumsy.... WTH......
den i managed to walked down to 1st lvl(force myself to walked to 1st lvl), my ankle was damn in pain..
when to TTSH, took x-rayed, no crack, no fracture.. and anw.. fractured once enough can liao..
its veri terrible to play if my fingers were affected.. pain nw lor.. kkz.. gtg liao...

aH mEng

2008-11-16T01:10:00.002+08:00

wow.. ytd's was a good day man.. good day to be in church.. i feel tt i've been revived liddat..
Thanks, Lord..
anw.. FINALLY..... ANNA IS BACK HOME FRM HOSPITAL....... and her dad CAME to church and received God as his personal saviour.... wow!!! we've got new BABY in our church.... Give thanks.... wow!! its reali a happy, wonderful day in church.. and mi, tony and ray reached church at abt 1000hrs juz to JAM u knw? and fri i did gt much slp.. nw, im so so tired la..
and time check: 0114hrs.. i shoulh be slping and later at 0545 to 0600hrs, nd 2 wake up n work leh.... cfm later will be veri tired.. i dunno why i prefer to go camp side leh.. weird mi.. anw.. i juz miss TraCom = HTA = Home Team Academy = Police Academy......... so so..... hmmm......
should i sign on?? still considering....... *yawn*...... time to slp....
tata.......

aH mEng

2008-11-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

yoz.... juz came back frm cell nt too long ago...
actual time start 4 cell is 1800hrs.. bt mi and pd late, and others too..
so anw.. we today cell start abit later.. and played a wonderful game..
its a game that to see who is alert and whose nt.. i dunno hw to explain it..
bt i comfirm u, its damn fun la.. lols.. crystal seah kena beaten on her thight until her thight nearly go blue black sia.. haha..
and oso aft the game, we had wonderful worship led by Ong Xuan a.k.a Amy....(dun understand y they called her Amy...)
and i was touched by the Holy Spirit.. and i tell u.. i long time nv been touched by Holy Spirit alr..
when i feel them agn.. i reali felt happy.. and thx to Bro Jeff.. he saw mi alone wid abit of tears and he came and prayed 4 mi.. saying that i've been running away frm God for a long time liao..
and its start to come back ler.. when i heard dis, i brokedown wid tears.........

seriously.. i dunno why when he said that i've been running away and its time to come back, it reali makes mi breakdown and cry like nobodys' business..
and oso, fell aslp during sharing time.. cuz i 1 whole nite nv slp cuz of working, morning nv slp cuz need to go Sub Court for escorts...... and den 1300hrs went out frm hse till 2330hrs den reached home...
tired till like can fall aslp like as if Tony's place is like my hse liddat..
haha.....

anw anw.. i reali damn High mood la.. nw eyes wanna close liao..
bye....!!!!!

aH mEng

2008-11-13T00:45:00.003+08:00

haha.. ytd did operator.. talking thru air.. as in u will hear my voice in e matra set.. meaning.. walkie talkie.. haha..
it was fun thou.. bt kinda stress la.. i dunno tings.. i keep askin.. i juz felt tt e regulars are so irritated by mi.. anw anw.. even thou i did operator.. it doesnt seems tt i learnt something.. dunno y i felt tt i learn nth leh.. keep gng round n round askin ppl of wad to put as classification la.... etc... troublesome...........
anw.. aft work.. all of us in my team, went to Yio Chu Kang, grassroots cc thr eat buffet.. shiok rite? bt, to mi, its still ok la.. cannot compare to those big big resturant in e hotels la.. etc......
ate till too full.. when laughing, nearly out of air.. FAT liao sia... die la..

anw.. aft dinner, went home and i reached home at 2200hrs.. so darn tired la.. nw, juz aft bathe, ok liao.. nt tt tired.. bt still.. hv to go slp soon..
k la.. i tink i reali gtg 2 slp liao..
tata..

aH mEng

2008-11-12T00:49:00.001+08:00

guys.. a moment b4 i say tt i dunno whether should i go thru inner healing rite?
now, i hv e ans... im gng to go thru inner healing..
pray 4 mi.. thanks..
bye......

aH mEng..

2008-11-12T00:35:00.002+08:00

hey... i dunno hw...

want to go inner healing, or nt to go?

im confuse.. cuz seriously speaking, i dunno hw does inner healing gng to be if i take..

God, hw? i dunno hw.. Plz help mi.. im kinda in a lost situation nw..

i wanted to put it down so badly.. bt i juz...........................

seriously, i dunno hw.. being a MAN.. i should take it and let it go like water...

bt i juz cun.. y?

im nt hating her anymore.. bt y i juz couldnt let it go?

i juz hate myself being used..

i HATE it.................

sometimes, i feel like im useless..

dunno y in e world am i doing..

and dunno y am i out here "harming" ppl..

God.. Y? could anyone tell mi y?

im juz simply a simple guy tt doesnt asked much frm ppl..

everybody knws it..

bt y juz some ppl want to make used of mi? i dun understand at ALL...

or should i say tt im silly? or fool?

letting ppl make used of mi..

i juz simply dun understand..

anw.. let mi decide whether should i go for inner healing..

i hope if i accept to go thru inner healing.. everything's fine..

and in e process of it, no EMO-ing(as xuan always like to say mi)..

and when aft inner healing, went home, nth will happen..

juz pray tt when i go thru inner healing.. im alrite..

Guys...... Pray for mi if u sees dis..

anw.. if u asked mi y i dun tell u'll personally..

juz take it as i dun wan alot of ppl to knw bah..

gtg.. bye..

aH mEng..

2008-11-10T13:51:00.002+08:00

ytd n today.. veri sian..
actually ytd i should be gng to mewah wid PD de..
bt den.. i was too tired to go.. so i sat told him tt i wun be gng..
den he veri wad sia.. when he @ kenny rogers.. still can msg mi and xuan telling us tt he so shiok.. wa lau.. wanna make us jealous nt liddat de wad..
bt nvm.. onli kenny rogers.. i oso can go eat on my own..
haha.. den when i online.. xuan tot i was wid PD gng to mewah wid him..
so i told her tt i was super tired.. tt's y nv go.. den she say is bcuz she and sop nv go tt's y i nv go..
haha.. so i told her its nt lor.. den she say 'jkjk'... =.=.......

anw.. today so sian ah..............
nth to do..... dunno wad to do next.......
haiz...
k la.. i tink i go play game ler..
tata...

aH mEng

2008-11-09T12:47:00.002+08:00

church was fantastic ytd.. bt aft that.. i somehow emo-ed.. y? cuz somehow i recalled things tt somehow came to my mind.. i oso dunno how come and why it came in..
bt anw.. i told Ps Lucy abt dis la.. i told her tt e hate to Fion has alr no more.. meaning tt hating her or some1 is veri tiring.. tt's y i dun wish to hate anymore.. and oso tt even thou i dun hate her liao.. bt i still hv dis feeling of BU GAN XIN of wad she did to mi in e past.. so i told Ps Lucy abt it.. she say tt its nt onli abt her.. its oso starting when i was a kid.. rejections by my dad, frens etc.. and its gonna operate and take it out layer by layer.. and she told mi tt when e rest is praying, i could nt feel it.. its bcuz of e BU GAN XIN tt starting frm young..

anw.. she prayed for mi abt dis.. bt i still told her lor.. tt last time in e past.. my r/s wid other gals wasnt ok too.. bt nt as jia lat as to Fion.. and every r/s i go thru, i feel disappointed wid myself..
mayb its tt i dunno hw to handle them wid their emotions? or is tt i gave in too much till tt gal climb over mi? or i dun understand wad gal wants? or i ctrlled them??? which is which?? i dunno.. how??
bt anw, she ask mi to go for an inner healing.. to take out all these.. layer by layer..
i dunno whether i want to take anot.. i dunno when in e process of it, will i be emo anot? will i get any unplesent attitude frm ppl anot? i dunno..
and somehow, now, i tot of a person in my mind.. i cannot say..
anw.. tt's all bah.. gtg liao.........
bye...

aH mEng..

2008-11-07T00:03:00.002+08:00

YEAH!!!!! at last... my leave APPROVED.....
hahaha.. happy like nth......
went to worship prac ytd and long time din felt God's presence liao....
when youth prac time, mel had 4 songs..
1. king of majesty, 2. beautiful saviour, 3. heart of worship, 4. i sing praises to Your name..
so wad mel did was tt e last 2 songs, 3 & 4, she wan every musicians to come down frm stage, except Tony.. cuz she needs a basic music instruments on stage for background music..
so we prac dis 2 last songs.. when we prac tt time.. it was great man.... especially when e song heart of worship to i sing praises to Your name... i kinda cried.. i dunno y.. bt i juz did..
and when it ends for tt 2 songs... i feel so shiok... dunno hw to explain it la.. bt its juz veri shiok.....
lols..
so aft tt, we carried on prac our 1st 2 songs which is king of majesty and beautiful saviour..
so.... dis 2 song was great too.. bt for beautiful saviour, dis song is a 12/8 beat.. long time din play 12/8 songs liao.. so when prac time.. went wrong beat... veri obvious sia.. and i keep shaking my head la.. bt nvm.. at least when during adult service, i did had some wrong or off beat la...
at least i tink its nt so obvious la..
still need to prac and be steady too.. lols.....
anw.. i leave it to God la.... God knws whr my skills are at.. bt anw.. e drum skill tt i had is nt for ppl.. is for God...
cuz its God gave mi dis.. and i veri eager to learn dis drum skill in e past and even PD sent mi to drum course....

and aft prac, @ abt 2130hrs.. left church @ 2150hrs.. and mi, Tony, Ray and Sis FangYan took uncle khoon Peng's car to Cck, sunshine place to had our dinner cum supper...
anw.. aft eating @ 2258hrs, uncle Khoon Peng fetched mi, Tony and Ray back.. Ray go back to his camp, den sent mi to Yew Tee stn and Tony, uncle Khoon Peng sent him home.. as for Sis FangYan, aunty Tis sent her back.. anw.. when we were eating, aunty Tis joined us... as she came down straight frm work.. @ sembawang...
den i reached home @ 2331hrs.. now.. Time check... 0020hrs...
im gng to bathe and get some slp b4 wake Ray @ 0400hrs for his prayer for Anna..
and thank God that Anna's condtition had better.. bt we, Youth in Living Spring will still pray for her(Anna) and her family as well..
k la.. i gtg liao..
tata..

aH mEng

2008-11-06T10:40:00.002+08:00

nw @ home, want to rest, bt my eyes is nt closing...
anws.. i'll be in church dis week.... haiz...
u knw something? Sis XiaoYan tag on my facebook and say that i din when to church of e mth of Oct.. sad sia... i did went..
onli ting that she din saw mi bah ler...
haha..
i when for e prayer ting for AG Chinese side onli..
i went.. i saw her, onli ting is that she din saw mi la..
den nvm.. anw... i juz msg her telling her that i'll be showing myself dis week as im gng to church.. haha.. see wad she replies mi.. lols..

anws..... when on e way back hm, i fell aslp in e train @ stn sembawang.. and im alighting @ admiralty stn... so i juz fell aslp liddat lor... so.. when i fell aslp.. i din realised that im alr pass my stop.. and when i realised that, im alr @ Marsiling stn liao..
so wad la.. dis is nt e 1st time i kena sia.. in e past, i oso kena liddat b4.. bt thank God that i woke up @ Marsiling la.. nt Jurong stn... if Jur stn.. i nd another 20 - 25mins of train ride.. and for sure, i'll slp agn wan de..
lols..
and also that i went to court escort today.. was a tiring journey.. lols..
k la.... gtg do my stuffs liao......
tata.....

aH mEng

2008-11-05T10:40:00.002+08:00

haiz.. was supposingly to go for a jog @ 0800hrs de..
bt den.. i couldnt wake up cuz my eyes dun allow mi to..
i tried to force my eyes to open, it juz couldnt.. im so disappointed la..

bt anw... im gng to play basketball at abt 1200hrs.. cux that's e time whr thr's no ppl or either nt much ppl in e court.. den i can play lor.. lols....
dunno hw's anna doing? hope she's ok liao...
prayed for her every nite.. wid e whole youth praying for her..
anw.. i gtg liao.. gotta do my stuffs... time check: 1045hrs..

tata..

aH mEng

2008-11-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

juz toking to my fren online on msn...
he told mi he got into accident..
lucky is minor.. and he was damn lucky..
he wasnt banged by any vehicles..
when he cornering till got spark came out frm his bike and he skidded..
cuz he corner till too low too..
and plus i that time in pangkor riding bike, din wear helmet too.. and the motorist thr was like riding tt they din got any accidents at all liddat..
they ride like nobody's business la..
when i din wear helmet, i had e feeling will hv accidents.. bt thank God tt din la.. even thou nearly got..
bt nw.. i dunno wad lisence wanna take la.. 2B or 3..
3, too ex.. 2B, danger.. haiz.............

HEADACHE AH!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz.. anw.. gotta tink abt wad lisence wanna take la..
tata..

aH mEng

2008-11-03T20:16:00.002+08:00

today went to play basketball wid ah pui(jeremy).. lols...
at e opposite khatib stn thr.. 12plus to 1500hrs...
in between went to Mac and had our lunch and den carry on playing till 1500hrs..
last played was at kebun baru CC when e rain had stopped..
and den go work straight aft playing..

anw.. today i play, ok la.. feel that my skill had gone down..
nt improving.. especially lay-up... 3pt still gotta try harder.. 2pt and free throw, also have to try harder..
bt lay-up hav to improve la.. if nt.. i wun b able to lay-up and attack inside..
anw..
when playing, he, ah pui, shoot, e ball stuck at e ring thr.. cuz e ball nt much air.. tt's y will stuck..
haiz.. den when he try to take, he kinda sprain his ankle.. bt i see its nth la..
bt if really sprain, have to see chinese doc liao lor..
cuz it will get worsen de...
went home aft that... till nw, din do much lor..

@ 2300hrs gotta pray for Anna..
muz rmb tt......
lols...

tata..
aH mEng..

Prayer for Anna...

2008-11-02T23:30:00.003+08:00

yoz...
23oohrs is up and i had prayed for Anna, her family, Derek, his family, Derek's Gf and her family and also Racheal and her family too......

1st, when i start to pray, i thank God that he granted my family safe for the whole day.. for those who in my family, went to work, or came home frm work.. thank God that he granted them safety journey..
den aft that i started to pray for Anna's condition and her family..
and really seriously speaking, i dunno wad to pray and i stop in between of every sentence that i've said.. anw.. i prayed for Anna's condition so that she will recover in no time and her family.. i prayed that e Mr S.A. Tan will stop disturbing her family as they are worried for Anna..
and i prayed that her dad will see God's work in Anna when Anna still in ICU.. so that he will believe and turn to christ.. and Mr S.A. Tan will not enter into them and disturb them anymore..
and also when Anna is recoverd, she will share her testimony to her frens and her relatives.. to let them know how great is our God, Jesus Christ.. the Alpha and Omega.. and the Provider..
than, i hope one by one, after Anna shared her testis, her frens and her relatives will turn to christ as well..

and b4 i end my prayer..
i prayed for Derek that i shared dis time @ 2300hrs wid him and upcoming time @ 0000hrs for Racheal..

"Lord, I now pray my last prayer for Anna that she will be fit and to see her in church in no time. Lord, I hand up every single person that I've mention juz now.. Keep them in ur safe hands..
In Jesus name I pray..... AMEN.."

ok.. im done of my prayer.. :)
time check.... 2344hrs..

aH mEng..

2008-11-02T22:05:00.002+08:00

heard abt a gal name Anna?
i din heard of her name and dun have e inpression of her..
lols..
anws...
she is nw in ICU.. heard that her body cun produce white blood cell..
and nt onli her is affected.. her whole family is affected.. cuz her dad is nt a christian..
so e Mr S.A. Tan is disturbing her family..
and Tony, called and asked mi to choose a timing frm 0700hrs to 1900hrs.. to pray for her..
so i too 2300hrs with derek.. and so, when e clock strike 0000hrs, pray for Racheal Lam..
lols.. anw anw.. jokes aside.. i took e time, 2300hrs to pray for Anna.. bt den.. i dunno wad to pary for her other den she's in ICU and as i too long nv pray liao..
nw im still tinkin of wad to pary for her.. hmmm..
i guess leave it to god bah.. he will guide my way to pary for Anna.. :)

so aft i pray, i'll blog it down of wad i've prayed for her.........
God Bless and Anna.. God loves You..

aH mEng

Madtv gagets

2008-11-02T18:46:00.002+08:00

2008-11-02T09:49:00.003+08:00

*phew*....
at last.. im off today aft doing night shift at DOR..
DOR meaning Divisional Ops Room..
another meaning its Telephone Operator lor..
sian.. office work lai de..
sad..

anw.. it was quite a relax night la.. bt i had to carry gun, bullets, handcuffs and T-baton....
heavy sia... haiz.. next week.. tues, sure do tel op agn de.......
haiz haiz haiz.....
when can i go lock up? i miss lock up la..
lols...
anw.. Ops Rm still ok liao... nt that bad ler... i tot in e beginning that Ops Rm will be darn bz..
den i recall, its in e day den kinda bz..
so hor.. i prefer do night..
can slp.. nobody will care u slp anot.. lols..
bt cannot slp too long la.. power nap still can.. abt 15 to 20 mins la..
bt when hear phone ring, no matter is member of public or other NPCs called..
have to ans....
haiz.. tired sia..
*ywan*.......

k la.. i wan to go bathe, makan, den mayb slp..
MUHAHAHAHAHA.........
tata..

aH mEng..

2008-11-01T16:42:00.002+08:00

"skipped' church agn...
lols.... last mth.. 1 whole mth din go church..
pro rite? now go or din go church.. gt no feeling liao..
last time din go church.. surely got feel some uneasy-ness wan..
bt nw.. totally no.. mayb alr used to it liao bah..

bt anw.. no matter hw im used to it..
i still miss O2..
missed xuan, tony, pd, jeremy, zj, ray, sophia, crystal seah, jing wen, ps lucy and lots lots more that i din mention here.. if i mention here.. i tink i no need to go to work liao ler lor..
cuz i need to type down every single person here..
and if i reali do.. i tink my brain cells surely die alot wan...
lols.......

k la.. i tink i gotta prepare myself liao.. cuz need to go work ler..
tata...

aH mEng..

2008-11-01T15:18:00.002+08:00

yo!! im back to continue my blogging.. haha....
i tink i nt gonna write it too long la..
anw.. in summary...
we reached thr at 0800hrs and took e ferry into pangkor island at 1100hrs..
den we at thr met lots of funny incidents la..
drink, bike wheelie, snorkerlling, clubbing, swimming, and etc...
plus bought 1 item for my fren's bdae..
for those i din buy..
sorry.. aft buying my fren bdae present, i short of cash liao...
heh..

long tym din drink.. den drink agn.. abit nt used to it sia..
haha.. bt nvm la.. at least i din get drunk..
haha..
drank red wine, tiger and liquor..
haha..
juz 1 nite.. drink all dis..
wow!!!
nt bad leh.. din got drunk.. haha..
k la..
i dunno wad to write liao..
summery done..
haha..
tata..

aH mEng..

2008-11-01T12:25:00.004+08:00

haha.. i got a new lappy liao..
its called 'Lenovo'.. veri ex sia.. it costs $1.6k.. plus microsoft office costs $143/-..
ex rite?
plus dis money is nt i came out wid 1st.. is my mum.. aft that, i will hv to return her e money..

haha..
anw.. Pangkor trip was fun..
mi and my frens we laughin all e way thru e whole trip..
we met alot of so called 'accidents'.. and 1 of my fren reali had an accident..

1st.. we reached at Pangkor at 0800hrs, on e 24th of oct..
den we need to take a ferry into e island.. and the ferry comes at 11oohrs..
so in e meantime, we went to shop.. buy some items..
few of my fren went into e shop and they bought 2 bottle of liquor..
den 3 of m fren went into another shop to buy...... guess wad they buy???
ans is: 'condom'.. wa kao... 3 pack of 6 some more sia.. they tot at that island is easy to get gals to hv sex wid.. so they bought 3 packs.. siao wan de..
anw.. sex aside...
when we reached pangkor island and e resort, we went into our own room and den we, 8 person, including myself.. rent 4 bikes to go rounding.. the road in pangkor.. is damn steep la.. plus when we alr rent e bike.. 2 of my frens in that bike went wheelie.. haha.... that's when we alr rent e bike and wanted to get out of e resorts that time.. and we were laughing all e way la..
HAHAHA.....

aft that, we went into dis place called pangkor town.. there, alot of tings to see..
1st day u passby, u tot thr's nth to see de.. cuz e place thr is like houses la..
den 2nd when we go thr.. its when we went snorkerlling on e 2nd day.. haha..
snorkerlling was cool.. bt over thr... cant see anything.. onli when go deep into e water den can sees it lor.. haiz..
bt mi? cannot go into that deep.. 1 of my fren did it lor..
and aft snorkerlling, we when to other places.. to have our tea break.....
haha..
anw.. overall, snorkerlling was ok bah ler..
plus we went to pub.. had drink la.. see gal dancing and singing...
plus.. when that lady came, she sing and dance... we tot hw pro was it.. haiz.. end up..
disappointing..
anw... when we finish our drink, den we went off liao...
and all e song she sang... it totally sux......
that nite... haiz.. got cheated in e day cum disappointed in e nite..
anw.. i continue ltr...
bz liao....
haha

tata...

aH mEng

2008-10-28T13:15:00.002+08:00

haiz.. my laptop is SPOIL liao.. cun use for a moment..
SIAN....... thanks to my mum for spoiling my lappy.. Errrr.....

anw.. i cun post anything right now as my lappy is spoil..
when i get new lappy, den i post my Pangkor trip..
tata...

aH mEng..

2008-10-21T14:13:00.002+08:00

wa kao.... tt idiot put mi filer agn for e next coming morning shift..
he purposely dun wan mi to go home and bathe and come back to DHQ to go to Pangkor Island..
wad an idiot.. Errrrr:@.........

anw.. im gng to Pangkor Island on e 23rd Oct rather den on e 24th.. i ask them y, they say if go one e 24th, my team might kena e last ferry to go.. so they arrange eariler of 1 night to go thr..
sian sia.. slp in e bus aft work.. wa.. we'll see how it goes bah..
last night doing filer was totally a WAR.. cuz too many things had to do.. i kept running up and down.. wa.. i was like penting like nobody's business.. and oso nv get rest too lor..
haiz.. k la.. cun tok much here liao.. gtg..

aH mEng

adioz..

2008-10-19T01:27:00.002+08:00

haiz..
ytd kena deployment at Serangoon NPC thr.. sian sia..
its a security coverage event..
its SM Goh Chok Tong, he went to Serangoon thr e Braddell Heights for Hari Raya dinner..
i need to reach DHQ at 1515hrs for drawing arms and Matra Set.. abit like Npco ah..
bt im nt a Npco.. haiz..
anw.. e event starts at 2000hrs for Goh Chok Tong to come.. bt e resident in e area or those invited guest, are all thr as early as 1700hrs.. juz to reserve e sits.. 1 word to say:'Kiasu'..
anw.. at abt 2000hrs, SM Goh Chok Tong reached.. and e event started at 2000hrs..
in betwen e event, it was so so so sian la.. keep ywaning when standing.. and e event was so damn formal.. e RCs still invited quite a number of artist to e event.. 1 frm m'sia tt i dunno her name, 1 is Anita Sarwak and a few others too..
event Anita Sarwak ask SM to sing Teresa Teng's song.. 'Yue Liang Dia Biao Wo De Xin'
and when e event end, mi and my partner need to give him 5bucks(salute) to SM, and he gave mi 5bucks back sia.. and oso.. he's damn damn damn TALL.... abt 2 or 3 head taller den mi..
wa lau, i see alr ah, can faint ah.. so tall...........

k la.. i need to slp liao.. as i need to work in e morning ltr..
tata..

aH mEng..

stubborn old fellow

2008-10-13T20:54:00.002+08:00

WTF la...........
i dunno wad my darn OC wants sia..
anw, last night shift i was doing filer, file those incidents and delays into arch file..
den when he came into my room, he saw e stack of paper at one of my pigeon hole..
den he ask wad paper is tt? so i told him is a lost reports or emergency reports..
den he nt happy, wanted to scold mi, bt end up he ask mi who teaches mi dis kind of filing?
so i told him who izzit lor.. den my OC wants mi to call him and ask him come over..
when he reached, my OC ask him tt y is this filing at this ways?
so he ans tt it was his trainer taught him, so my darn OC wants e trainer to come over to my room as well..

so when e trainer came and asked wad happen, den my darn OC say y is dis filing at this way?
den he oso say is his trainer lor.. bt he say his trainer alr ORD liao..
so anw.. he LAN LAN, juz walked off.. bt b4 tt, he still want mi go file in his way at was abt 20yrs ago.. and i dun understand why.. and till morning when reporting to him, he wanted to scare mi tt if i continue to do wad im doing nw, be prepared to get charge by higher authroized ppl..
bt when my darn OC say dis, in my heart asking:'den why u want to giv mi password for?', 'u say muz follow u do e filer lyk 20yrs ago, den put 1 more Reg officer to come over lor.'....
dis is wad i said in my heart lor..
my OC ah, he's e kind tt he wun tink and keep asking 'why why why', wadeva he says, nt alot of ppl knw hw to ans him.. and he's an OLD FASHION type.. darn OLD FASHION..
tt's y alot ppl say he veri STUBBORN..
mi? i called him stubborn old fellow..
cuz seriously, wad i was taught, its nt wad 20yrs are doing..
if let's say do back in 20yrs ago method, den those filer no need to go back and oso e I.O dun need to do their tings alr lor..
i dun understand wad he's trying to prove sia..
want to prove tt he is e most higher rank? ask him to suck d**k ah..
f**k*r..
anw.. i dun wanna tok abt dis and f**k care him la..
if reali wanna charge mi, go ahead lor.. cuz dis method of doing filer, it has been quite long alr..
so i tink if i next time do filer agn, i will do wad i was taught..
if he wanna default, i will go complain abt him..
cuz i cannot take him anymore..

see wad he can do wid mi..
e darn brain dunno hw to work.. onli knw hw to say..
wad a PAIN.....!!!!!
k la.. gtg..
bye..

aH mEng..

MacGyver (Drum Video)

2008-10-10T13:38:00.000+08:00

Super Mario Bros 2(Drum Video)

2008-10-10T13:28:00.001+08:00

Super Mario Bros(Drum Video)

2008-10-10T13:24:00.000+08:00

2008-10-09T02:24:00.002+08:00

i HATE HATE HATE doing filer...... and i HATE HATE HATE my Oc Ops........
and i even more HATE HATE HATE dis damn fucking world..
Y IS DIS WORLD SO DAMN FUCKING UNFAIR? WHY?
y i cun do e post tt i like?
y cun i choose? i tot SPF suppose to be fun.. aft back in division, it isn't fun..
in division, i cun do work tt i like..
and i dun understand y i cun be frontline police officer? WHY?

when i was young, i wanted to be a cop.. a real cop..
and nw, i've joined SPF under NS, i tot i can be a real cop for 2yrs..
aft i pass out frm Home Team Academy to division, i realise tt it seems so so so fair to be a real cop tt i've dreamt when i was young..
indeed, God ans my dream.. bt why God dun wan to let mi be frontline officer?
in NS squad, my whole squad, all cannot be frontline officer..
y? i want to be frontline officer.. when i was in dis current team in division, i dun feel happy..
instead, i struggled.. cuz dis is nt wad i wan.. and dis is nt wad i enjoy.. and in dis team, i dun feel tt im in dis team.. i feel tt im juz like a stranger to dis team.. ppl see oso dislike tt kind..
am i so annoyed tt ppl dislike mi? wadeva.. i juz hope tt i can transfer dis fucking team can liao..
i reali dun wanna stay in dis team and in DHQ as well.. i reali cannot take it..
i see my squad mate and fren in same/other division.. i asked dem, they relax de.. same time pass out as mi, din do filer at all.. I? kena kick here and thr.. take mi as wad? SOCCER BALL ah?
im nt a SOCCER BALL.. im HUMAN.. have feelings..
and my Oc Ops din show concern.. he onli ask:'ok?' 'can?'.. aft answering, den he juz walked off..
dis called show concern.. and he e type like to ask damn lots of qus.. keep asking 'WHY AH?', 'SO HOW?'.. i hear alr, i oso dunoo how to ans him.. and he e kind tt dunno how to help his SCs.. wadeva.. anw, juz 1 word for him.. SELFISH..
sometimes i rather AWOL den gng to work wid dis fucking Oc Ops..
wan mi die at filer rite?
ok, fine.. i'll let u see how im gonna die in filer post..

AHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~.......
CANNOT TAKE IT ALR.......

aH mEng..

2008-10-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

now, i feel like tml i dun wanna go work..
bt dun go will kena AWOL.. fuck sia.. and its under NS de..
i dun mind under NS.. bt its e post tt i dun reali like to do..
FILER.. how i wish i can dun do filer AT ALL..
i will feel more stress doing filer den other post..
cuz of e I.Os*.. i surely be more stress tml..
and my mind is all filled up of 'how to pretend sick' or 'how am i gonna get sick'
cuz i reali dun feel like gng to work lor..
esp filer.. ERR... somebody.. HELP PLZ...!!!!

i seriously dun wanna do.. and my OC OPS dun even knw wad's up in my tots..
and nv ask oso.. i feel so unfair.. esp to mi.. AGRRH.......
cuz when in team alpha, got 2 SCs in e team.. one is mi, e other 1 is CPL Tan..
its seems like my OC OPS sees rank de..
where else mi, tt doesnt have rank at all, i find myself been mistreated..
seriously speaking.. he treat my fren CPL Tan nicer den mi..
i dun tink he suit dis OC OPS job n his damn fucking ranking as SSI**..
SSI so wad? onli more knowledge wad..
i dunno izzit time for mi to ask for a transfer..
cuz i reali wanna transfer..

'God, i dunno wad to do.. i wanna transfer.. i dun reali enjoy working under DHQ, i feel like i'm being force to do wad i dun like and i prefer working outside.. i find tt is e job for mi rather sitting or doing job in DHQ.. God, guide mi.. cuz i seriously dunno wad to do.. and i dun feel like gng to work.. and i feel ppl in DHQ, in my team, like aiming mi.. esp my OC OPS.. he say he's nt aiming mi, bt wad i felt tt he is.. izzit bcuz i no rank? or wad? i din do anything wrong to making him hate mi or wad.. bt y i felt tt he's aiming mi? y God? y? i dun get it at all.. dis 2 mths, its veri struggling for mi.. i till now still cannot decide tt whether am i gng to sign on or nt to sign on..
God.. i hand my troubles up to you.. i hope i can transfer out..
in Jesus name,
AMEN'

gtg..

aH mEng..

Do You Love Someone This Much?

2008-10-05T22:01:00.001+08:00

Girl: Slow down, i'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, its not. Please, its 2 scary.
Guy: Then tell mi u love mi.
Girl: Fine, I love u, slow down.
Guy: Now, give mi a BIG hug.
Girl: *hugs him*
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on yourself? Its bugging mi.
Girl: Alright. Now slow down.
Guy: I love you babe.
Girl: I love you too. Please just slow down now! Please!

(in the next day's paper):

"a motorcycle had crashed into a
building cause of brake failure.
Two people were on it, but only 1 had survived.

The truth was that, halfway down the road,
the guy realized that his brakes broke,
but he didn't want to let the girl know.
Instead, he had her say she loved him and
felt her hug one last time, then he had her wear his helmet
so
that she would live even thought it meant he would die."

So how much u love ur girl?
will u be like dis guy?
anw, dis text is a chain.
i juz type in cuz it touches mi.
even thou i nv reali do such cases.
if i ever do such case like dis guy in dis text,
i knw tt dis girl is my future wife.

and anw, if u love ur partner is much,
u can post it on ur blog or anywhere tt u tink ur partner will sees it.
tata..

aH mEng..

Adidas - Wanna Play?

2008-10-03T00:16:00.001+08:00

2008-10-01T20:07:00.002+08:00

this morning came back from ytd's night shift..
reached home, slp for abt 1-2hrs, den go out meet tony, ivan n ern..
so when i and tony met ivan, we go get our movie tickets..
1st tony wanna watched Connect(HK movie), den when reached vivo and checked e timing for tt show, haha.. actually its selling fast.. den ivan suggested tt watching Eagle Eye..
so we bought 4 tickets, cuz ern will meet us ltr at vivo..
den mi, tony and ivan went to have our lunch at vivo e SuperDog..
wa piang.. damn ex sia.. 1 meal cost abt minimum $6 onwards.. i rather eat Mac or KFC la.. go eat SuperDog.. haiz.. anw.. we finished, den wait for ern at 3rd lvl outside Planet Fittness..
den we went to watch..

tt show is so cool.. damn nice.. starting, i dun reali understand.. den when its finishing, i kinda understand wad it means la..
kinda complicated for mi.. and i felt aslp in e cinema for abt within 20mins.. so still nt all show i missed.. i onli missed e BORING part.. haha..
anw.. Eagle Eye, nt bad.. worth to watch.. i like it.. heh..
k la.. i gtg ler..
cook maggie liao.. lol..
tata..

aH mEng..

2008-09-29T23:40:00.003+08:00

lol.. today so crap.. was workin at AMK Police HQ..
and was blur sia.. like for an example..
one accused wanted to make a phone call.. and its his 2ns attempt..
and i tot need to sign.. so i wanted to write and let him sign, den my fren say no need..
and another case is tt 2 accused was referred to IMH.. den i tot need to write or change e figure..
den they all laugh.. i was like.. 'wadeva lor'..
and my OC Ops keep questioning mi for dunno how many times sia..
cannot tahan him sia..
haiz..

i dunno wad to write liao.. anw..
gng off ler..
tata..

aH mEng..

2008-09-29T01:04:00.002+08:00

wad's reali happening in my life?
y izzit totally different frm e past?
nw im more lonely.. in e past, i wun.. y i am nw?
mayb izzit bcuz im in NS.. or i prefer to be alone..
bt den of i prefered to be alone.. i shouldnt feel tt im lonely mah.. dis is totally wrong man..
wad should i do to get a LIFE man..
i see my fren.. all happy de.. i oso wan.. bt y i juz cant?
sometimes i feel tt live in dis world is totally wasted.. y? cuz in e world nw, dunno wad to do..
disaster coming here and thr happening.. and on and on..
like none stop..
or i should leave dis place? to other country?
i tot of tt once..
bt i oso tot tt if once im nt in s'pore.. wad will happen to my mum and my sis?
wad if my crazy dad one day go bersak hw?
even thou im over at e other end of e world..
bt in my heart i will worried..
i reali dunno wad to do.. neither do i knw wad's gng on next..

tata..
aH mEng..

P.S: in dis world, i dun worried execpt e one i've mentioned and future spouse..
i may tink too far.. bt.. its true..

2008-09-26T00:52:00.004+08:00

i tink i will stop gng to church for a time being..
i knw y am i doing this..
its my decision..
i'll go back if wans mi to..
if nt.. i will disappear into thin air like nobody's business..
anw.. stop gng church, i dunno when will gonna do it..
bt i tink its nt nw..
once i made a decision of nt gng..
i guessed it will be difficult to returned..
anw.. i will nt be church hop..
juz onli stop gng for a period of time..

bb..
aH mEng

loner..

2008-09-26T00:36:00.002+08:00

i feel so so so damn lonely..
i feel so strange in church..
i feel so im nt part of e church anymore..
i feel im a new believer in church tt doesn't being noticed..
i feel im juz a nobody in everybody..
i feel tt im all out thr alone fighting..
i feel tt nt onli frenz looked down on mi, as well as i i've looked down on myself..
i feel tt juz 1 fine day, i will nt go church anymore..
i feel i tink i nt onli need a life partner, bt oso frenz..

wadeva i wrote in blog, nobody will notice, nobody will read it neither nobody will access it..
so.. anws.. im a boring guy tt nobody will notice tt im sitting at 1 corner..
nw im all alone.. nobody needs mi, nobody will talk to mi, nobody will notice either..
i might as well at home rather den gng to church.. or go out alone.. i rather go out alone den sitting at church alone.. it will be more miserable..
tt's sucks...
bb..

aH mEng..

2008-09-24T18:47:00.002+08:00

wa lau... i cannot tahan JASON ZHANG liao.. tt M.I.C.. i juz............
ERRR...
he's making mi crazy..
i din taught him anything and yet he said i teached him..
he still have e face to argue with mi tt i taught him e bad tings..
he's e 1 learning on his own accord.. i din taught him ANYTHING..
den he lose e arguing to mi.. den say.. 'ya la.. u win ok?'
wad is this..
i feel like wan to shut him up ler sia..
like to kpo.. like to ka jiao mi.. he juz dun make my volcano burst can liao..
if my volcano burst.. he will knw how nasty i am..
im nw trying to endure it.. anyone see dis tell him tt dun come disturb mi.. or else..
i will be veri nasty..

aH mEng..

2008-09-23T18:44:00.002+08:00

haiz.. missing this yr's wwh.. due to work, cant apply leave.. so no choice.. :'(
anw.. they seems alot of fun sia..

haiz.. today wasn't quite a gd day.. dunno y..
while working night shift last night..
wasn't veri gd liao..
cuz ytd night was suppose to draw T-baton and Handcuff..
bt when i went up to armoury and scan my name..
the comp shows tt my name wasn't in e armoury list.. so i can't draw anything..
sad sia.. used to draw arms at armoury, bt ytd din draw.. feel abit unsafe..
bt i thank God for protecting mi..
thank Him tt ytd night till this morning, when doing Lock-Up, thr wasn't any violent accuse nor any trouble makers..
so thru e night was peaceful.. bt time veri slow..
and this morning went for court escort w/o any baton, handcuff, revolver and bullets..
dun feel safe either.. i reali thank God for reali protecting mi..

reached home abt 1000hrs.. eaten breakfast and went back to slp liao..
haha.. pig sia.. lol..
anw.. my arms, tights, right shoulder starts to ache liao.. y? cuz i went to play badminton with wei ling(ex-movie bites fren) and with some of her other frens..
reached thr abt 1145hrs.. cuz i tot they were at sembawang cc.. so i gone thr.. nobody's thr.. so i called her asked whr are they.. so, she told mi they're at woodlands sports complex..
den i was shock sia.. cuz i remembered tt she told mi at cc sia.. bt, nvm.. mayb she told mi b4.. den i forget.. i cannot blame anyone bt onli myself lor..
wadeva it is.. at least i shown up.. lol..
anw.. i gtg liao..
hungry liao..
tata..

aH mEng..

2008-09-21T23:39:00.002+08:00

today damn nt my day la..
y? cuz today i do alot of wrong ting..
1st is e SD(Stn Diary) book tt i duplicate quite a number of e same thing..
den lots of cancellation in e book too..
den when my Oc Ops see e SD book, he nt tt happy la.. cuz gt cancellation la, write e same thing agn.. make e book of tt page veri messy..
bt lucky tt my head Oc Ops, he's having off.. dis 1 is my covering Oc Ops..
shiok.. morning, no fall in.. straight away go to briefing..

anw.. let mi continue.. so aft tt SD book, is one of e accuse.. an old uncle..
he committed criminal intimitation la..
he knows he has heart problem.. he still shout here and thr.. keep begging us to call his I.O(Investigating Officer) to see him as he left his 9 yr old son wid e IMH wife..
den my fren say la.. he shoot e accuse by saying:" ARE U CRAZY? how can u leave e 9 yr old son at home with e IMH mum?"
anw.. tt old fellow accuse keep insisting of seeing his I.O.. as we did our part to contact his I.O.. den wad we told him.. cannot go into his brain de..
so totally equals to NO USE talking to him.. so i and my fren ignored him when either one of us walked to see is everybody are alrite..
den i gt irritated by him ah..
when he's at top of his damn voice.. i raise abit to calm him down.. den onli once i raised my voice, he quieten down alr.. den i can get a chance to calm him down in my soft manner..
den most say is my fault..
haiz.. i dunno la.. veri irritating and.... ERRR.....

anw.. i gtg liao..
tata..

aH mEng

2008-09-21T00:30:00.002+08:00

wad e FUCK la.. reached home on sat at abt 2300hrs plus..
feel darn tired..
den when on e way home, my mum called.. asked mi whether wanna buy something to eat..
so i told her anything la.. if wanna get, get something full de..
so i reached home, rest awhile.. den go bathe..
aft tt.. dun feel like eating.. so i sit on e sofa watching tv..
den one of e fucker came and keep talking..
and i was irritated by tt.. so i ask tt fucker to shut up in a polite manner..
den her nt happy, shouted at mi for NOTHING.. if u were in my shoes, wad will u do?
fight back? or keep quiet? which one?
for mi, i chose to fight back..
e ting is, if i told him tt i will eat ltr, he will sure keep saying more wan.. so tt's y i chose to keep quiet till i CANNOT take it anymore till i fought back wid tt fucker..
den he still can say tt i shout at HIM 1st.. got LOGIC anot?

so we fought till veri siong.. till i threw my spect on e dinning table.. and wanted to fight alr..
seriously, i CANNOT take it anymore.. and i CANNOT communicate with tt fucker anymore too.. i dunno HOW to stay at this home anymore.. i CAN'T talk to him anymore..
i keep quiet, and din keep quiet, thr's NO difference at ALL..
still can fight fault with mi..
wad u tink la.. this kind of FATHER(FUCKER) still wan mi to respect him?
FAT HOPE..
still have e cheek to say that in front of my face..
"Eh.. Dun make mi VOMIT la.."
wan mi to respect u.. i rather keep a distance frm tt FUCKER den RESPECT him lor..
wad an ass.. wad a pain..
how i WISH that he can juz DISAPPEAR.. as i DUN WANNA SEE HIM AT ALL..
NT EVEN TALK TO HIM..

ARRHHHH.........
when i grow up.. i swear.. i wun be like that fucker tt so nt respect his children at all..
if that parent still wan his/her child to RESPECT him, he 1st should respect his child..
den both will respect each other..
nvm... that FUCKER wanna blame mi.. let him be lor..
one day he'll knw..

i dun wanna say liao..
dis is enough..

bye..

aH mEng..

tired and crazy..

2008-09-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

hello.. i dunno wad to write sia..
y? cuz nw is 2310hrs.. n abit sleepy too..
haiz.. today is my 2nd off day and it was burned..
woke up at 0630hrs in e morning.. left hse at abt 0715hrs..
reached Amk Police Div Hq at abt 0810hrs..
and this morning is so sian.. attended maintainance course..
basic de la.. to let us knw wad is e role of being a maintainance officer..
anw.. is so sian la.. felt asleep in e class..

anw anw.. i tink i las 2-3days ago, i was abit crazy..
y? i went out with jeremy to get jacket n mayb some shirt n shorts or pants..
bt den, onli got jacket.. din get shirt n shorts or pants..
bt bt.. end up, went back to causeway point to buy watch..
a puma watch.. guess how much it cost? its 3 digit de.. lol..
den my mum nag nag nag at mi.. for getting so so expensive watch..
den ask mi to get another watch to go work.. so now.. i got 2 watch.. 1 from pasar malam, 1 from causeway point, e puma watch..
crazy huh..

anw.. i tink i gotta turn off liao..
tata..

aH mEng..

P.S: Guess my puma watch cost how much.. lol..

tough day..

2008-09-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

wa kau.. today(09.09.08) was a damn tough day for mi n my frenz sia..
starting of e day still ok de.. nt so much accused come in.. and within an hour, i guess can say less den 10 accused will report to us.. BT.. i dunno wanna say is lucky or suay..
out of a sudden aft 1530hrs.. alot alot of Bangala suddenly came in one by one..
reason of being brought in? cuz they are I.I.. I.I = illegal worker tt doesnt has/had any work permit..
the NPCO caught alot.. in e cell got 11 I.I alr.. den holding area still got quite a number of dem..
so i guess e I.I got abt 15 of dem ah.. and plus.. when morning tt time to take over shift.. got a transsexual person.. frm a male to female.. so disgusting.. and seriously.. when we wanna search HIM.. we like dunno wad to do sia.. so end up no choice, juz to search HIM lor.. n oso.. HE has a gal looks.. and even have BOOBS.. so i guess tt HE is either gng to operate or alr operate frm guy transex to gal de..
haiz.. wad e world is happening sia? its getting worse sia..

and today got 1 accused told mi tt he claim to see things ah.. as in SPIRITS..
when he told mi tt.. i wasnt even ready tt he wanna tell mi dis things and my hair all stand..
i kept praying in tongues.. kept asking God to giv mi peace when handling e remand accused..
and den when i was doing my work, he kept knocking, kicking e metal gate.. i dun even knw wad e hell is gng on.. so i and 1 station sgt went in and took him out of tt freaking cell and transfered him to another cell tt onli for insane n violent accused.. or even can be drunkard too.. we called it a padlet cell.. cuz if they are insane, when they knock their head against e wall or wad, their head wun have any bleeding..
so tt's e good thing of tt cell.. and oso its easier for us to monitor e accused in e padlet cell..
and today is seriously damn bz for us in e lock up area..
dun even have e time to eat too.. wanna eat tt time, got accused come in and nd to search their body.. till my both hands are so so so so so damn dirty..
and nw im half dead alr..

ok la.. i dun say anymore..
seriously im half dead liao..
seeya..
tata..

aH mEng..

5th sept to 6th sept

2008-09-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

haiz.. 1st day get back to work aft falling sick..
den today, kena tekan like nobody's business..
1st.. dis morning i din really do wrong.. and he's like eyeing mi.. i shall nt say more den dis..
den wen in e post im doin, he see mi seriously like nt happy wid mi..
ok.. i tink i shall say no more.. cuz seriously i dun feel like sayin it anymore..
lol..

6th sept..
lol..
now, im at jeremy's new HOME.. wid Tony Ang.. haha..
juz had supper.. at his nearby mac..
anw.. wanna say tt is, when u step into his new HOUSE, u will sure like it de..
cuz seriously, its veri nice.. im nt kidding.. haha..
dunno wad to say anymore.. seeya when im back on sun..
tata..

aH mEng..

Rowan Atkinson - 'The Piano Player'

2008-09-02T19:19:00.000+08:00